Living Cosmos

I once saw a comedian who said: "if you're going to kill yourself make sure not to jump off a very high building"

Then he went through this routine of a person jumping off a building and screaming at the top of his lungs...

and then the person runs out of breath... but he's still falling and falling. And now he's having second thoughts... and he's still falling. Then he starts looking back up and wishing he hadnt jumped... and he's still falling.

So the moral of the story was: choose a short building to make a clean break.

Now that I've hit the send button on that resignation email, I'm sitting here thinking: "I dont care about computers. I just need a job for 1 more year until I'm good enough at guitar. Then I can earn a living playing gigs. If I move I lose my guitar teacher. I just need to show up at work and dont be so serious about doing a good job.  Everyone thinks I'm doing fine. It's just my internal sense of pride that's hurt."

Normally, I have a mechanism where all email is only sent out after 15-30 mins instead of immediately.

Man, I wish I had that in place on this email system... hahah.

But I have loving-kindness on my side to see me through this potentially painful divorce.

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